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Monday, August 22, 2011

Enjoy Life


Well the good news is; I didn't light up as a Christmas tree all nice and shiny. The bad news; more testing and thus more waiting.


The waiting is really the hard part. Once you know you can just go and fight the bastard. But as long as you don’t know, you don’t know what or how to fight it. Even if you wear your best panties!
So last Friday when we went to Dr Nala she told us that although the PET scan didn’t show a whole lot we needed to do more testing because there were several spots that she didn’t trust.

So today (Monday) I will be going and will get my boobies squished, for real this time not like last time… Wednesday we have to go to get the results and Friday we have to get a biopsy done. And then we wait. Next Thursday Dr Nala will give me the news. At least I hope. Any news is better than no news...


Until then, since it is pretty hard focusing on anything at all lately (wonder why…?) and I have all these idea’s for things/stories I want to tell you in my head, but somehow they don’t make it onto the paper. That is why I’m gonna leave you with this great quote I found at my cyber friend Dolores’s blog: Moving forward with Alzheimer’s.  

There are 5 things in life you cannot recover:
A stone... After it's thrown
A word... After it is said
An occasion... After it's missed
The time... After it's gone
A person... After they die
Life is short. Break the rules. Kiss slowly. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably. And never regret anything that made you smile, Enjoy Life…

So that is what I’m gonna do!


Enjoy all the sweet comments you left me in the last week, which made me feel so special, so loved and so much stronger. Enjoy my wonderful family who I can count on no matter how bad, cranky or desperate I feel. Enjoy my more than fantastic hubby, who makes me feel pretty even if I look like hell. Enjoy the farm where I am so incredibly proud off.  And enjoy my friend for life, crazy black stallion and give him a good rub!

And if Jones is a good boy maybe he can get a good rub too, he’ll enjoy that….

See ya Thursday!

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73 comments:

  1. PatriceAugust 22, 2011 at 9:58 AM

    You'll be in my prayers.

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  2. TexWisGirlAugust 22, 2011 at 10:03 AM

    oh, sweet pea. i'm sorry the worrying and waiting continues. love to you and yours for the next round...

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  3. MikeAugust 22, 2011 at 10:03 AM

    'No news is good news' doesn't always make you feel any better. Hope everything turns out better than you can imagine.

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  4. DoloresAugust 22, 2011 at 10:08 AM

    Oh how I wish you weren't having to go through this...and then the long wait......yes, waiting is so awful.

    Please know that I'm keeping you close to my heart and in my prayers for good results....
    Hugs,

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  5. DeborahAugust 22, 2011 at 10:09 AM

    Sending love your way x

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  6. JulieAugust 22, 2011 at 10:12 AM

    Prayers for you sweetie...

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  7. Larkrise garden girlAugust 22, 2011 at 10:17 AM

    Leontien, All weekend i have been thinking of you. You know your in my prayers and waiting well sucks.
    Sorry I just had to say that! Your wise beyond your years and you know we all are giving you blogger friend hugs! Cheri

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  8. That Janie GirlAugust 22, 2011 at 10:34 AM

    Girly, you're in my prayers. Waiting does suck...write when you can, I bet it will help.

    That cat! ;)

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  9. JillAugust 22, 2011 at 10:34 AM

    How I wish you didn't have to go through this. I know too many people with this ugly disease. Not knowing you for long though, I can tell you are a real fighter. Keep it up. Always remember how many people are praying for you.

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  10. UnknownAugust 22, 2011 at 10:36 AM

    You are in our thoughts and prayers chicadee! Been thinking of you all weekend!

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  11. MadSnapperAugust 22, 2011 at 10:47 AM

    hang in there, we are all pulling for you and praying for you. don't fret about the can't think what to write, we will be waiting. what you are going through with the waiting is bound to make the writing mojo go into hibernation. hugs from Florida

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  12. MelodieAugust 22, 2011 at 10:50 AM

    I am sorry you are still having to wait,I can only imagine how agonizing it is.Hang in there.You have so many praying for your good results.

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  13. Buttons ThoughtsAugust 22, 2011 at 10:51 AM

    Oh my thoughts are with you all the time. I have been praying for you I know all this waiting sucks and more squishing yuk but things are going to work out. You have an incredible light to you and you are going to beat this DAM (yes I said it) Cancer.
    Keep positive OK I know it is hard. Your family loves you and so does your blogger family.
    B

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  14. Gail DixonAugust 22, 2011 at 10:53 AM

    Oh, fuddy duddy. Sorry you did not get any results yet. Waiting is so difficult! Know your blogging buddies are with you in spirit. Hang in there!

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  15. UnknownAugust 22, 2011 at 11:10 AM

    Big hugs!!!!!!!! I will be praying for ya sista!!

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  16. SharonAugust 22, 2011 at 11:16 AM

    Waiting, I believe it to ranked in the top five most horrible times in a person's life.

    We are all pulling for you... and waiting too.

    XXX

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  17. Lisa @ Two Bears FarmAugust 22, 2011 at 11:37 AM

    Well, I hope you find wonderful distractions all week, and that those suspicious spots are quite innocent!

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  18. donAugust 22, 2011 at 11:39 AM

    I love the innocence of this kitty! We all wish you didn't have this cliff-hanging wait. All the best… and positive thought and prayers here too.

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  19. JillAugust 22, 2011 at 12:02 PM

    Wish that I could give you a big hug!!! Praying for good news on Wed.!

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  20. EllieAugust 22, 2011 at 12:05 PM

    I'm sorry you are having to go through all of this. Lots of positive thoughts coming your way.
    Love the pictures of the little kitty. So cute. Love the quote it is all very true. Good luck to you.

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  21. KimAugust 22, 2011 at 12:49 PM

    Waiting is the worst. I would rather know and be able to deal than just sit and wonder. Last year I had a bad Mammo report - and they couldn't do another one for 3 weeks. So I freaked more each day. (The 2nd one was OK)
    Hugs to you

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  22. Cinderella11pmAugust 22, 2011 at 12:49 PM

    My empathy to you, Leontien. Waiting is hard.

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  23. bon bonAugust 22, 2011 at 12:50 PM

    you are in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie. xo...

    and i have to say, your kitty (this is jones?) is pretty darned adorable. someday his little body will grow into his head! hee hee!

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  24. Out on the prairieAugust 22, 2011 at 1:00 PM

    The suspense is hard to wait on. I work with hospice volunteer doing respite care and know the drudgery of that wait.I love the quote you found.

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  25. Welcome to the Garden of EganAugust 22, 2011 at 1:02 PM

    I'm so sorry that you have to wait. I can't fathom. You and your sweet family are so in my prayers.

    I love the paragraph you put in from your friend.

    Hugs and loves my friend. Hang on! We are all praying for you.

    Enjoy the boobie squishing....also known as the mammy slammy!

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  26. AlicaAugust 22, 2011 at 1:23 PM

    I've been praying for you all weekend...waiting to hear some news, and will continue to pray for the next round. I can identify with the waiting after the boob-squishing!! Been there...but hang in there, and many happy distractions for you...even a surprise visit from some PA "friends"! :)

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  27. LindaGAugust 22, 2011 at 1:24 PM

    I get mine squished in September...

    God Bless, Leontien. Hopefully no news will be good news.

    *hugs* ♥

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  28. Dawson Cattle CompanyAugust 22, 2011 at 1:31 PM

    thinking of you! only happy thoughts, so you can have the great results you deserve. Keep your chin up, your super strong.

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  29. UnknownAugust 22, 2011 at 1:58 PM

    Will continue to think about you and pray for great results!

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  30. MichaeleAugust 22, 2011 at 2:02 PM

    That's it, stay positive and know we are thinking of you.

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  31. Nancy Grossi ~ Churned In Cali ~ The Wife of a DairymanAugust 22, 2011 at 2:09 PM

    Here's hoping the next three days going flying by for you. Prayers still going your way and fingers crossed:)

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  32. JuliaAugust 22, 2011 at 2:32 PM

    Stay positive and hope for the best. Hugs. JB

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  33. AngelinaAugust 22, 2011 at 3:05 PM

    Hoi Leontien,

    We denken aan je en hopen hard met jullie mee op een goede uitslag !!

    Veel liefs van Mayk, Angelina en Brent

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  34. It's meAugust 22, 2011 at 3:08 PM

    Wat is dit nu voor naar nieuws???...meissie toch...ik geef je even een ongelofelijke dikke knuffel en hou je even vast......heel veel sterkte...en ik ga bidden voor een goede uitslag hoor!!...liefs liefs van mij.....xxx...xxx...xxx..

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  35. LouiseAugust 22, 2011 at 3:46 PM

    You will be in my thoughts, my dear. Just know how precious you are to all of us cyber friends, and go stomp and kick at that which threatens you. Your black stallion will show you how.

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  36. barbara l. haleAugust 22, 2011 at 5:26 PM

    My best to you.

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  37. TheCrankyCrowAugust 22, 2011 at 6:19 PM

    Oh Sweet Leontien....so sorry to hear that more "wait" is on your menu...but...pull the joy from the fact that you haven't been given "bad" news....I know "easier said than done," but grab these days as days with "NO news" and run like hell!! :o) You're in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be till I hear you have a clean bill of health. Go play with that funny, funny, kitten....My heck - I swear I've never seen such a big head or big ears on something so small!! What a fuzzy doll he is!!! Big Hugs Girlfriend....Robin

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  38. luckybunnyAugust 22, 2011 at 6:41 PM

    Waiting is the worst thing. I'm thinking of you.

    Those skull panties are great!

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  39. SultanAugust 22, 2011 at 7:47 PM

    Thinking healing thoughts on your behalf.

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  40. Farm GirlAugust 22, 2011 at 7:57 PM

    I will be praying for you.

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  41. DebbieAugust 22, 2011 at 8:03 PM

    hugs to you leontien, waiting and not knowing is so difficult!!

    i LOVED the 5 and the kitty, i hope she grows in to that head!!

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  42. UnknownAugust 22, 2011 at 8:17 PM

    Leontien, I know the waiting is hard but hang in there, we're all praying for you.

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  43. dr momiAugust 22, 2011 at 8:33 PM

    Another one letting you know you are in my prayers...

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  44. SamanthaAugust 22, 2011 at 8:53 PM

    You've got the blog world in your corner, girlie...you can do this.
    We'll be waiting and praying alongside you.

    Have those bad-ass panties ready to rock!

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  45. TannaAugust 22, 2011 at 9:20 PM

    holding steady with the prayers...

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  46. SandiAugust 22, 2011 at 9:27 PM

    Leontien, I'm so sorry. I've given your name to others, asking them to pray for you. I cannot imagine what you are going through during the waiting, but know I care.

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  47. ReenaAugust 22, 2011 at 9:41 PM

    sorry you have to wait longer but I love your attitude! And those are great words from Dolores's blog. Love 'em!

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  48. YvonneAugust 22, 2011 at 9:42 PM

    Things changed...I'm sorry I've gotten behind in keeping up with your posts. Love your panties. I'm so sorry for what is going on and for all the worrying it is causing. Much love to you, and you are always in my thoughts.

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  49. deila taylorAugust 22, 2011 at 9:47 PM

    Ok, so one update, that is good. I'm sorry you have to do all this waiting, along with testing. I hate to wait for results. I'll be keeping you in my prayers, as I have faith in the unseen world and a higher intelligence. Great thoughts you posted here.

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  50. DoloresAugust 22, 2011 at 9:51 PM

    Hi sweet friend.....I love how you used the quote from my blog.....big smiles.....
    Hugs, dolores

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  51. Leslie August 22, 2011 at 10:19 PM

    You have such a great perspective and I pray that you hear GOOD news soon.

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  52. BeckyAugust 22, 2011 at 10:51 PM

    Thanks for visiting and leaving a lovely comment.Lots of prayers and all the best to you in such a trying time.God Bless!

    See you soon!

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  53. DreamingAugust 22, 2011 at 10:52 PM

    Gosh darn... no quick answer. But, my best wishes and prayers are coming your way! Good karma... all that stuff! Have a good week!!!

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  54. Oak Creek RanchAugust 22, 2011 at 11:30 PM

    I'll be waiting for your post on Thursday -- and thinking of you until then. That quote is awesome... so true.

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  55. PaulaAugust 23, 2011 at 12:00 AM

    Since I'm new here I'm just reading about your worries. You can bet my prayers are with you along with your friends here.

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  56. AnonymousAugust 23, 2011 at 1:09 AM

    I love your spirit.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  57. geetleeAugust 23, 2011 at 1:49 AM

    Hoping and praying for good news.
    Thank you for dropping by. You inspire me. Have I said that before? I guess I'll keep saying it again and again :)
    This little kitty is so cute!
    Waiting for your next post!

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  58. rainfield61August 23, 2011 at 4:56 AM

    I thought Stallion will give me a smile in the last picture.

    Never mind, it will, after the result is ready.

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  59. Ricki TreleavenAugust 23, 2011 at 7:57 AM

    I have been on break, and I am just checking-in with you. You have my prayers! I just went through something similar, and it ended up being fibrous tissue. We suffered through several days of not knowing, and that truly is the worst.

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  60. SherryAugust 23, 2011 at 8:08 AM

    I'm glad you were sent over to find me ... I've walked this walk. If you have any questions or you just want a good rant...send me an email.

    I'm a 6 year and counting breast cancer survivor and I know exactly how the waiting game feels. Deep breaths...I think your list is wonderful! xo

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  61. Misty DawnSAugust 23, 2011 at 9:15 AM

    I just found your blog, so I'm late, but I will keep you in my prayers. My cousin's wife, who is one of my best friends, is a breast cancer survivor, and I was right there with her through it all. I'll be checking back to see how you're doing. (((HUGS)))

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  62. LyndaAugust 23, 2011 at 9:29 AM

    Thanks for visiting my blog so I could find *you*! My thoughts and prayers are with you! ~ Lynda

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  63. MirjamAugust 23, 2011 at 10:22 AM

    Hey Leontien, heel veel sterkte komende dagen, wachten is zo *piep*.
    Groetjes Mirjam

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  64. SaimiAugust 23, 2011 at 1:24 PM

    I'm just going to keep looking on the bright side and know you will get through this. Just know that I'm thinking and praying for you!

    How fun would it be for your black stallion to meet my black mare!!

    Those pictures of the kitten are so adorable!

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  65. GingerG17August 23, 2011 at 1:29 PM

    My prayers are with you.

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  66. SouthhamsdarlingAugust 23, 2011 at 2:30 PM

    I also loved the quote from Dolores' blog. I've just noticed that you have become my latest Follower, so thank you for that. I am so sorry that you have these worries over your health, and I will be praying for you as well. Keep strong and remember, in quietness and trust is your strength.

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  67. Lisa GordonAugust 23, 2011 at 6:42 PM

    Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you Leontien.
    Sending you hugs.
    xo.

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  68. doublehphotoAugust 23, 2011 at 7:44 PM

    I will be thinking of, and praying for you!

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  69. troutbirderAugust 24, 2011 at 7:53 AM

    Prayers. And wonderful quote. :)

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  70. KatieAugust 24, 2011 at 12:22 PM

    Praying for you Leontien. Keep us posted. Fabulous quote.

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  71. SusanAugust 24, 2011 at 1:10 PM

    I'm due for a PET Scan next Monday to see if I light up like a Christmas Tree for lung cancer. I am so scared and tired of waiting for an answer. I have spots in my lungs and they want to see if they are cancerous. I'm not happy that you have cancer, but I am so glad you're talking about it, because I have felt so alone! I hope it all works out for you !!!!

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  72. Poppy (aka Val)August 27, 2011 at 5:21 PM

    Sending you all best wishes that the results are good, you are in my thoughts xxx

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  73. UnknownAugust 28, 2011 at 10:15 PM

    You are in my prayers, and I just love the way your mind works. I so believe that positive thinking is extremely vital in any recovery. If you ever need a positive kick in your pretty panties, just ring my bell. Hugs and love to you my friend!

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