I’m a monster!

No…! I’m a vampire… oh well, maybe a vampiry monster… who’s to know…

It was another round of tests in 2009. We just found out that the Interferon (chemo) did something with my eye sight and it needed testing.

 It was extremely frustrating for me to accept that when you (yes, you) get a little “auwie” (pain) somewhere, the doctor, husband, wife, kids, tell you to not be such a puss and get over it, where as I whenever I had a little “auwie”, little pain, rash, concern, or imaginative problem, I needed to be checked out completely, by different doctors multiple times!

So when I told the doctor that i thought my vision was getting a little blurry, guess what she told me to do…. Yep, get my buttocks into the best eye doctor’s office and have me checked out.

I had NEVER been to an eye doctor before. I didn’t need it. My vision was perfect and there was absolutely no reason to go there. So I was very surprised to see all the “tools”, huge chair and several interesting bottles on the desk. The eye doctor was a very sweet young man and asked me what the problem was. I told him about the cancer, chemo and blurry vision.

First we started with the eye test. Looking true a funny tool thingy and read the letters or numbers. I thought I did pretty good. Then he started to put my face in some kind of a cup holder and I needed to look true several little discs with holes in them and read some more numbers and letters. After the readings and me still thinking that I did pretty good, we started with the (incredibly nasty) light in the eyes.

While he was shinning that bright light in my eyes I needed to look up , down, right, left and again with the other eye… I figured this was gonna be it and he would tell me I would be fine and that I needed to be a little though and not be such a puss and then I would go home.

Well, the fun just started after that!

He put some drops of stuff out of those little bottles, in my eyes…. Red and yellow stuff and made me look true the little discs again. But this time it hurt! I did NOT sign up for this, yep the little puss came out!

The last drops were something “special”…

He put them in my eyes and told me to sit and wait until they had enlarged my pupils so he could look into the back of my eyes. “Okiedokie…”

About 15 minutes later I could NOT SEE ANYTHING up close anymore and only a little bit far off and the LIGHT! O MY GOSH, THAT LIGHT… I was pretty scared but apparently that‘s normal. He looked at the back of my eyes and found some “disturbing” things. Which was not funny but it was what we (as in the oncologist) found out later was expected to be a side effect of the chemo.

What was funny though was the fact that I was so HIGH AS A KITE of all the drugs they gave me and the fact that I had these HUGE pupils only made my mood even BETTER! We had to go to the hospital right after we got done at the eye doctor for chemo treatment and i really thought this was my day...

To every nurse, and yes I mean every nurse, doctor, patient, or whomever wanted to listen at the hospital I literally yelled; “I’M A MONSTER, I’M A MONSTER!!!”

And no, they didn’t get it… well, until they saw my eyes and understood my joke…

And then there were the ones that just thought I lost my mind, even after seeing my eyes…

And there was Bastiaan, pretty embarrassed to walk beside me, to make sure I didn’t run into any doors or walls…

Oh, it was a great day and I had one of the best chemo treatments ever! I’m pretty sure I fell asleep halfway true the treatment because of all the excitement and yelling but my gosh it was fun!

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